As some of you know, I’ve gone through a period where I lost my passion for riding. I’m not sure why, but I think that what I did was put too much pressure on myself to be perfect, especially at shows – which was a recipe for disaster.
I decided that I am going to take a break from showing, which unfortunately means taking a break from one of my favorite shows, Garden State.
But, I realized, it’s okay to take a break because you know what? Showing will always be there. I’m not taking a break forever – just until I improve my riding to where I am completely comfortable showing at 2’6″, what I’m currently schooling. Due to health issues, I’ve been unable to ride consistently anyway, though I jumped last week and didn’t seem to miss a beat. However, I want to be schooling at least 3″ to 6″ higher than what I will be showing at. That way, the 2’6″ won’t look so big when I return. So my new goal is to do some schooling or local shows, sparingly, during the summer, and to return to A rated in August when the next big A rated show in New Jersey happens.
If you are feeling pressured or feel that passion fading, don’t be afraid to take a break. One of two things will happen – you will either miss riding or you won’t. And if you don’t, then maybe that break will be permanent. Either way, it’s okay to take a break. It took me a little to comprehend and become okay with that, but I am okay with it. I know I will get to where I want to be, and I’ve adjusted my goals to short-term ones that are more realistic. My long-term ones, which are lofty, can wait.